#my biggest fear with having kids is not being able to handle it

[unamused-kookaburra]

Watching the trailer for totally completely fine: oh fun! a cool little aussie dark comedy!

Finishing the final episode:

[damiansgoodgirll]

Could you write a smutty damian priest x fem!reader where he LOVES to leave hickeies on her? He loves to show her off! He leaves a big one her after another superstar(I'm thinking la knight) flirts with her and he wants to really make his territory:)

damian priest x reader

‼️smut baby, smut + reader has no shame at all (that could never be me)

likes, comments and reblogs are always appreciated!

mine, all mine

“what did you said? uh? i didn’t hear you” damian teased you while two of his fingers were pumping in and out of you.

“oh fuck…” you moaned, not able to answer him properly “i said…don’t leave any marks on me, please”

“and why not?” he smirked, curling his fingers inside of you.

“my costume…it will reveal too much…” you weren’t able to focus anymore on anything he was saying.

he smiled before attacking his lips to your neck “good…”

in all honesty, you didn’t care about marks and hickeys showing, in fact, you loved when damian marked you. you just didn’t want to have marks where in less than 24 hours you had a live event to attend, the one where families would be there with their kids and you, being a lovely babyface, had to behave like one.

meaning you had to stop and greet all the kids present at the event. you loved it, of course, you just didn’t want marks to show on that day, especially with kids being involved.

“damian please…i’m serious, no marks tonight…”

damian knew that tone and he knew you were serious.

“what if i mark you where people can’t see it?” he proposed.

“then what’s the fun part of showing the world who i belong to?” you teased him back.

“love, you are not helping tho…” he chuckled “but…not the whole world has to see this, just one person i have in mind…”

“who?” you asked.

“you know who…”

“damian” you laughed a little but stopped when you saw he was being serious “you know he doesn’t think of me like that, do you?”

“then why does he keep flirting with you? i don’t understand, i absolutely despise la knight for even thinking he could get with my woman…so please, let me show him who do you belong to” he teased you with his thumb over your clit “he will never see you like this, naked and panting for me, all for me…”

damian wasn’t stupid. he knew la knight had a crush for you. he couldn’t deny he enjoyed it seeing him so desperate to have his way with you but at the same time he couldn’t handle the possibility of seeing you with another man. he loved you and he knew you loved him too, but he had insecurities too and his biggest fear was to lose you.

so he had to mask all of those insecurities behind the bad boy mask.

“i’m yours damian…but please, no marks, please baby” you were serious. damian knew better to piss you off. he knew you took your job seriously and he didn’t want to upset you.

“i’ll see what i can do…” he smiled before moving his lips around your nipples. he teased them, giving them equal attention. he took his time with you, his fingers slowed down a little, his thumb circling your clit while his teeth were biting into the skin of your breast.

“oh shit…damian please…” you didn’t know what you were begging for.

“you like that uh? my little brat likes being treated like that” his teeth around your nipple, making you jump a little.

you knew hickeys were going to show up all over your boobs but honestly you didn’t mind. as you told damian before - places nobody would be able to see.

his lips moved over your thighs, your most sensitive part. he gently kissed your skin, moving from thigh to thigh, giving them the same amount of love.

“patience my love…” he saw you squirming under his touch. the sight of you naked was almost enough to make him cum right on the spot “let me taste that sweet pussy please” he said, leaving kisses over your clit, teasing you and making you even wetter.

you couldn’t handle his teasing no more “please damian, i need it” a single tear fell from your eye.

damian loved to tease and play with you but not tonight. he knew about the hard week you had and the fact that you had to leave wednesday for a live event while he had to stay at home was making the little time you had together even more special.

he took one minute to just admire you.

to admire the work of art over your breast.

your nipples red and the skin around them turning into a light purple colour. he was proud of himself but he knew the job wasn’t finished yet.

“tell me if it gets to much okay? i want you to enjoy it…”

“okay papi” you teased making him chuckle.

“oh shut up” he laughed before attaching his lips to your clit. your hips buckled into his mouth from the stimulation and he had to circle your chest with his muscular arm to make you stop moving.

“oh shit damian…right there please” you moaned when you felt his fingers moving again inside of you.

“you taste so fucking sweet mi amor” he whispered into your pussy, making you vibrate and shake under his body “you’re so beautiful princesa, naked and crying for me, i want to show the world how pretty you are” he said curling his fingers to that sweet spot you love.

“oh fuck do it again…”

“yeah?” he curled his fingers again “like that?” he looked at you like you were his prey. you nodded, non trusting your words enough but damian was satisfied with your answer.

you felt his hand moving from your hips to your thighs, his palm resting on your left one before he gently lifted your leg over his shoulder. the new position made you feel things you never felt before.

“oh fuck fuck - shit” you moaned, more tears streaming down your face.

“is it okay mi amor?”

“yes fuck - more than okay…” he smiled.

“i’ll give you something else to scream for…” you whined at the lack of attention when he removed his fingers from you. his tip slowly teased your entrance, collecting your juices and gently pushing in “you were made for me mi amor…”

“right there please damian…fuck” you were heaven for him. your eyes closed, mouth open, tears streaming down your face, your hands and nails leaving marks into his back while he was slowly pounding into you, teasing you and making you feel all of his glory.

his hand went back to your thigh, holding it like his life depended on it. he loved every minute of that action “i can feel you’re close mi amor, come for me…”

“i need you to go faster please…” you gently asked him like he told you to and he happily obliged, hitting that spot faster and harder “damian fuck…” his movements were enough to make you cum on the spot.

he couldn’t keep it any longer and he spilled himself into you. what a sight seeing his cum coming out of you.

“fuck…you’re so beautiful, let me take a picture…” and he took a few pictures. the first one was you with open legs and his cum dripping from your pussy, the second one were your tits covered in a big purple bruise, your nipples still hard from the stimulation and the third one was you, your face, eyes closed and tears on your cheeks “these are my new favourite pictures” he said making you laugh.

when you came down from your high, you slightly move to sit on the bed and in that moment you saw red marks and hickeys everywhere. you didn’t mind your tits that much but the one on your thigh was huge “damian…”

“what? i didn’t leave any visible marks” he smiled looking at the pictures.

“this one…”

“no one has to see your thighs” he smirked.

“shit it’s huge…i will have to wear long pants”

“it’s a family show anyway, kids won’t be looking at your ass, dads will but i’m pretty sure it’s clear who you belong to…” he smirked at you, you joked punching his arm.

“what are you gonna do with the pictures?” you asked him. it wasn’t nothing new for you to take pictures of yourselves after or in the middle of sex, but you saw damian opening the chat with a specific person “damian?”

“he has to see who do you belong to” he smirked.

you honestly didn’t mind, in fact, it made you proud seeing damian so proud of it. so you agreed with him to send the pictures to la knight.

“he can watch but he can’t have you…” he said before pressing send.

mine, all mine he wrote before sending the pictures do la knight.

so, while la knight was shocked and terrified by damian at the same time, you were happily asleep in his big arms.

[assassin-artist]

My X-Men OC, "Solar Flare". Infodump and random info below the cut

so first things first, she was originally a Destiny 2 OC. In d2 she was an immortal warrior with fire powers and complete amnesia about her past... When I first decided to revamp her into an X-Men OC I thought I should change that bc, umm, immortal with amnesia, that sounds like a familiar xmen character lol... but then I decided fuck it, she's my OC I get to make her however I want.

So, as an xmen OC, she is a mutant with a very strong healing factor, and the power to control/manipulate solar radiation, which mainly comes off in the form of fire. Her body naturally runs at a higher temp than normal, and though people assume this means she's resistant to heat, that's not true at all. Her body might be able to handle more heat than a normal human could, but she's still at risk of burning herself with her own powers if she's not careful - which, when it comes to herself, she's usually not. She's doesn't worry about it because of her healing factor, willing to burn herself if needed, but she is very worried about burning others or doing too much damage to the area around her. She absolutely hates the summer because of this, and loves the cold. Will have the AC blasting in her bedroom at all times lol

She still has complete amnesia regarding her past. Her first memory is of waking up in a decimated library on the outskirts of a ruined village in France. She sought information about her past for years, but kept "getting distracted" with wanting to help the people she came across in her travels. During this period of wandering, she went by a lot of different names - none of them chosen by her, though, as she enjoyed letting other people pick a new name for her to go by. She would eventually wind up making her way into America, where she ran into the early X-Men for the first time. After explaining her situation and powers, she's invited to join them in Xavier's school, but she's too hesitant to commit to a group that she doesn't fully trust, so she turns them down. Thus, she went back to searching for her memories.

Though she was afraid to commit to being a full time member of their group, she was still willing to help them in combat if she was nearby, and she still formed bonds with some of the members. In general she was easy to get along with, as others found her to be very patient and easygoing, she didn't like to argue over things. She became very fast friends with Wolverine due to their similar amnesiac circumstances, and he liked to call her Red-Hot as a nickname. She also got along well with Hank McCoy and liked having philosophical and religious conversations with Kurt Wagner.

Her personality is very... calm. She likes to just 'go with the flow' of things in life, so she rarely gets angry or loses her temper. Insult her and she'll probably just laugh it off, or ask why you're in such a bad mood. She loves kids and animals, and she tries to always be patient with others, especially those who are difficult to get along with. She's of the belief that the people who are hardest to love are those who might need it the most, and she's always willing to extend a helping hand to others with little in return. Patience is her strongest virtue.

Her biggest flaw is her fear of commitment. She's afraid of joining the X-Men as a full time member because she's worried she won't want to stay, she didn't want to be in any relationships despite being in love with someone because she was afraid she'd get flighty and want to leave it, and she won't even pick a proper name for herself because she's worried it wouldn't be right for her.

Eventually, with a lot of time and soul searching (much of which was done in deep, hours long conversations she would have with Nightcrawler from time to time), she decided to leave the past behind and instead enjoy the present and look forward to the future. She made peace with not knowing who she used to be, and finally decided to settle on the name of "Claire", instead of hopping from name to name.

She also has a god-awful sense of humor. Very punny. Nobody ever laughs at her jokes. RIP Claire's pride

Cringe is dead, we love selfshipping and oc/canon on my art blog, so I like to ship her with Wolverine :3c (of course I give Wolverine a redhead girlfriend). Look I even filled out this silly ship chart for them lol (I put Logan down as "?bisexual?" bc apparently there are multiple comics where he's with men? I haven't read them but we love a bisexual short king).

Logan the canonical truck freak fr... She liked him from the moment they met, but as they got to know each other, her feelings grew deeper. At the time she realized these feelings, she was still deeply afraid of commitment, and so she kept it to herself and tried to just be a good friend. Eventually, when she got over her fears and was a valued member of the X-Men for good, she finally asked him out on a date (right after a very tough mission, and she was still giddy with adrenaline and feeling bold lol). They've been together ever since 👍 Claire tries to be a calming influence on Wolverine, but honestly, sometimes she agrees with him when he loses his temper at awful people. She sees him as someone who's willing to do whatever it takes to get a job done, and he sees her as someone too kindhearted to be getting her hands dirty with the work he does. She only wishes he were kinder to himself, and chides him when he gets self-deprecating.

Now for a few random facts about her, hrm... Her favorite food is watermelon. She has a sweet tooth and likes to bake, she often drops by random classes at Xavier's with home-made goodies for the kids. She loves the idea of having children but is worried she won't be a good mother. The kids at Xavier's know that if they want something and Logan says no, they could probably go to Claire and beg her for it. She's a softie towards kids and can't say no when they get their puppy dog eyes out...

It's become a running joke to celebrate her birthday on a random day since they don't know when her real one is. They pick a new date every year. She's got a decent singing voice and is trying to learn the guitar from Hank McCoy. She jokes about Northstar having a messy love life, and calls Dr. Nemesis a crotchety old man even though she might be older than him.

Mmm... that's all off the top of my head. I'm the kind of person who likes to make a new OC every time I have a cool idea, so I have a ton of them... maybe I'll make posts about other ones as well some day.

[girlishwhimsies]

unfortunately i HAVEEEEE to yap about my modern qpr pbj college au cause im thinking about it all the time and have to share

first of all it includes wheelchair user johnny my beloved 🫶 but basically the gang is all the same but johnny wasn’t ever part of it, im not sure where he lived but not in tulsa (i have a whole backstory about him and his parents in this au don’t play, i WILL drop it) he also got emancipated from his parents at 16/17 and was able to get an okay enough job to afford

pony gets assigned as johnnys roommate and they meet on move in day, soda and darry meet him then too. and they all IMMEDIATELY get attached to this poor kid, dawg for sure looks worse for wear he is smalllll and owns like 4 shirts. also doesn’t have many possessions!! so ofc they all love him so bad and soda and darry pretty much force him to get dinner with them and pay for it (they are broke but damn it they will be making sure this kid eats something)

pony doesn’t know anyone at school so he is like okay i need johnny to be my best friend and they just click instantly, attached at the hip! them slowly trusting each other more tho cause even if they click they both have built up Walls and finally feeling safe around each other, telling each other about their parents. pushing their beds together cause pony has nightmares and being closer to someone helps him. them having the biggest fattest most pathetically down bad queer platonic crushes on each other but not knowing exactly what they are feeling and just ough

pony finding out johnny doesn’t have any thanksgiving plans and forcing him to come back to tulsa with him and meet the gang :( johnny just fitting right in and watching from the corner just soaking up all the excitement from the people around him and being so shocked and happy when they include him in on things! he also clicks so well with two bit who clocks his ass so bad so quick within like 10 minutes (soda clocks pony within this time period as well) and corners him! johnny is lowkey scared shitless but two-bit is just excited for him and tells him it’ll turn out fine etc etc (and also makes a bet with steve that they’ll be together before christmas) also they go to stores and steal together i fear it’s so important to me

after thanksgiving pbj getting even closer, spending so much of their free time together!!! but all good things must crash down at some point (at least for a little bit)

pony catching johnny on his computer snooping and copying his work onto his own page…. pony just loses it he’s already been so stressed this week and he’d scared of failing and he just doesn’t get why johnny would be doing this and he trusts johnny so bad so what if he is just using him!! meanwhile johnny is freaking the FUCK out cause his learning disability ass has been struggling and he can barely even read (audio books and voice to text is this man’s best friend!!) and he just couldn’t handle going through all these hoops this time so he tried this but he messed up so he just panics as pony is yelling and blurts out that he can’t read real well and BOLTS

pony after that really be standing there like 🧍‍♂️panicking and calling his brothers cause he doesn’t know what the fuck just happened or how to process it!! meanwhile johnny is outside FREEZING cause it’s right before winter break and doesn’t know where to go for the night and plans to drop out in the morning cause he doesn’t know what the fuck he was thinking trying to go to school and his phone is at 1% so he uses the last bit of his battery to send the gc with all the gang a text with “thank you so much for all your kindness, i ain’t ever gonna forget all y’all did for me” before his phone dies and he can’t get another charger

so now EVERYONES freaking out and as soon as morning hits the gang all drive up to the college and pony with their help HUNTS through campus!! ofc johnny sees them from afar a few times and BOLTS away cause he doesn’t wanna get caught since he thinks they all hate him (he has thousands of missed messages and calls since the night before) til they finally corner his ass and finally get him to properly communicate

pony teaching johnny how to write and read slightly better and he gets a job at the thrift store :( he goes home with the curtis’s for christmas and new years and spring and summer break!!!

anyway this isn’t even like half the lore man and i hope you all love my insane little au that’s far too important to me!!!

[calcitedraws]

does fen have a food they wouldn't ever try or taste?

Mines is liverwurst. My cousins eat that every holiday event. So bitter 😑

Fen's pretty adventurous with food, but their palette is more western-centric and they have their limits in this order:

Anything with a gritty or slimy texture: mash potatoes, refried beans, runny eggs, grits, etc.

Any raw meat. Sushi, raw oysters, undercooked steak (they prefer well done, the freak). I think this stems from a fear of being sick.

Anything that has a face showing. Crawfish, fish with the head still on, etc.

Anything that tastes 'wrong'. They have certain expectations of food and if it deviates from what they're used to, they won't like it. (Ex. Mac n cheese with the wrong texture, pie with an unusual flavoring, lemonade that isn't sweet)

Their biggest gripe is texture. They can handle moderate amounts of spice, but if the texture is wrong they won't be able to handle it. If you made something that was 'bad' to them they'd force it down with a strained smile and then suggest gently that they should cook more often. They couldn't force themselves to eat anything gritty or slimy, however.

Side note: They go nuts for Craft Mac N Cheese. I actually loved liverwurst as a kid but I was also a freak of nature, so who knows.

[bluegekk0]

I will be honest with you, Gekko... I got Milo and Asta mixed up... I thought Milo was the darker one, and Asta was the lighter one. 😭

Aside from my little blunder... Here's an Ask;

We know of Vyrm's fear of waters and drowning... But what is Grimm's biggest/worst fear? It'd be ironic if he was scared of complete darkness, like pitch black spaces. Or maybe he's scared of tight spaces, can't handle tye cramped areas?

Hahaha yeah I can't entirely blame you for that, I usually draw them together and they have a shared reference sheet. I do want to eventually sit down and give them separate ref sheets, maybe that would help a little. Maybe it's also cause female non-human characters are often designed to be lighter in color than male characters? It is a fairly common trope so I could see why someone would assume that for the twins. I suppose it's a funny coincidence that the two male kids are both pale in color hahah

As for the question. Grimm's biggest fear is death, but not his own death, rather losing his loved ones. The fact that he could lose them at any moment keeps him up at night quite often, and he gets especially nervous when any of them gets injured or sick.

But from a more specific fear... Maybe he'd be afraid of being completely alone and isolated? It makes sense, his true form is trapped with no company or way to permanently escape, and he surrounded himself with others the moment he was banished from Godhome. Though before that, he spent a lot of time figuring out how to even create his physical form in the situation he ended up in, and I'm sure that whole period felt extremely isolating. It was just him, the only thing breaking up the complete silence was the beating of the Nightmare Heart. It'd make anyone go crazy, so it's not surprising if he now fears being put in a similar situation.

Which only makes it more sad that in his depressed state after Vyrm disappeared, he grew numb even to that fear. He'd avoid others and isolate himself in his troupe office, and it was only thanks to Divine and Brumm dragging him out of there that he was able to cope somehow. Perhaps that would only fuel his fear even further, since it'd remind him of that awful time in his life.

Now, I don't think it would be as debilitating of a phobia as Vyrm's fear of drowning, he can spend some time on his own without any trouble, though he still needs the assurance that if he needs company, he can always find it. Though that's also in big part because, unlike Vyrm, he's generally far better at coping with his fears on a daily basis.

[mpregandproud]

Isaac (Part 8)

Week 38 passed, week 40 passed and week 42 arrived. They said that multiple pregnancy ended earlier, but there I was, 336 pounds and so fat I could barely move from my bed. I kept getting up to pee. Food was brought to me in bed by Isaac, breakfast, lunch and dinner, and any craving I could think of. My tits had developed enough by now that I had been breastfeeding little Sandra for weeks. That little girl was growing as fast as my belly and boobs were growing. 

My belly didn't drop until I was 42 weeks along, and even then there was little sign that I was going into labor. My situation was desperate. I had enjoyed pregnancy like I had enjoyed nothing else in my entire life. It had been the best roller coaster I had ever ridden. Watching my body grow live inside and being able to grow three beautiful babies was incredible. Words can't explain what pregnancy feels like, my mother understood me, but I couldn't get Isaac to understand 100%.

But as I said, that pregnancy had to end. It was time for those children to come out of me. Walking was impossible in my state, so the only thing left was sex. Therefore, it was time for Isaac to pull out with his cock what he had put inside me. It was time to close the circle.

He put me on all fours and began to play with my hole, my penis and my testicles. It could be because of the advanced stage of gestation, but I felt that sex as the most incredible of my life. Isaac came hard inside me. I had never seen him so wild, so animalistic. He took his job of getting the little ones out of their father's belly very seriously. We cum dozens of times. The tremors in my body were increasing and I could feel my anus compressing Isaac's penis. The contractions began to be more numerous, until in the middle of my orgasm my water broke. The bed was soaked and what were separate contractions in time became intense and frequent.

"They're coming, Isaac, they're here," I told him between terrible pains. He cleaned me up a bit, fetched some blankets and towels and stroked my belly and back. He peeked into my hole and saw that it was very dilated already. "I've done a good job," he joked. In a normal situation I would have laughed at that kind of teasing, but at that moment I felt like a human being was about to come out of me.

The first of the kids was huge, or I don't know because I've never pushed a baby. His head was opening me up. He was making his own way. It took me 20 minutes to get him all the way out. The pain was enormous, but once it was out I could breathe easier. It was the first of the three I had inside, this was just the beginning.

I breastfed him until the second one started to come out too. This one was much easier. Between Isaac and our first son I had my birth canal perfectly prepared to make labor easier. Half an hour after the birth of Dylan, our first son, Nate was born.

The third baby wasn't waiting to come out, as soon as I delivered his brother he started to come out. His delivery was the easiest. But something wasn't right, as the baby I had just had was a boy, when it was supposed to be a girl. "It can't be a boy, the doctor said it was a girl!", I yelled to Isaac. "Honey, I don't think you're done yet, there are more babies inside your belly," Isaac said grabbing my belly which was still very swollen still. "You're doing phenomenal, you can handle three, four, five or however many to come," he said in my ear and then gave me a kiss.

As I regretfully feared, the fourth baby started to come out of me. It was the biggest of the ones I had delivered so far. I had a hard time getting his head and shoulders out. I was already very tired and the size of the baby didn't help either. Almost an hour after his brother Philip, Edward was born, yes, another boy. 

My belly had dropped considerably, but it still looked like that of someone in their ninth month of pregnancy with only one baby. "There's a fifth Isaac, it can't be," I said tearfully and exhausted. Isaac didn't say anything to me, he gave me a kiss and hugged me. "That's so many babies because our love is gigantic," he told me.

It took me half an hour to go into labor with Cristina, our fifth and last child. Hers was the easiest labor of all. After she was done I was able to lie on the bed and breastfeed the five precious babies I had just delivered. They all looked just like Isaac, with his gorgeous face, black hair and his eyes.

I was already the father of six babies, and five of them I had delivered myself. I looked around and saw Isaac with Sandra, Dylan and Nate in his arms, while I had Philip, Edward and Cristina. Six beautiful babies, the most perfect babies I have ever seen in my life. 

Go to Part 9

[seahagart]

Okay okay okay!!!

Drífa asks!!!

What did she think about Auntie Ethel?

Did she save the Zhenterim traders and help deliver the package?

How did she recruite Karlach and how did she difuse the situation between Wyll and Karlach?!?

Does she prefer hot foods or warm foods?

How much does she weigh???

Can other people draw Drífa?!? And post it with credit of course!!

Fave animal?!?

Biggest fear??

What does her dream visitor look like?!?!

Can we draw her interacting with other Tavs?!?!

Does she have any missing teeth??

What companion does she get on with the least?

Whats her opinions on marriage??

And finally and personally for me most importantly: if she was an animal, which would it be and why?

Thank you~♡

Oh my goodness! Thank you!!!

What did she think about Auntie Ethel?

I think she is a bit superstitious, doesn't trust her, but also is of the mindset that 'you made a deal with a hag, what did you expect?'. She is distrustful for things that are 'too good to be true'. She likes elderly women, so she probably liked her until it was put together she's a hag and then was weary.

Did she save the Zhenterim traders and help deliver the package?

She probably saved them, and then that was about the amount of interest she has, money doesn't really do it for her. She probably doesn't even remember that.

How did she recruite Karlach and how did she difuse the situation between Wyll and Karlach?!?

She saw a big lady on fire and was like 'wow... that is so crazy... ok anyway-' then once talking to her, probably likes her and notices her strength. Drífa was like 'Karlach, you only one that not small or fragile like others...' and recruited her. Then to diffuse the situation is like 'idk karlach seem pretty cool lady, seems like she's right' Drifa likes Karlach

Does she prefer hot foods or warm foods?

I doubt she could handle anything particularly spicy, but she likes warm meals.

How much does she weigh???

Probably like 500+ lbs, she's 8ft tall

Can other people draw Drífa?!? And post it with credit of course!!

Absolutely! I would be honored and want to see it!!!

Fave animal?!?

Bears. I think she relates to bears, especially polar bears, and sees herself as one. Solitary, only coming into contact with other in times of conflict or to mate. She believes herself destined to be alone, secluded, isolated, it is her purpose... not that she doesn't feel alone. She raises her 'cub' alone like bears do. I think she probably has a kinship while a female bear in the area who she used to want to kill but eventually it's more of a 'that bitch over there' with more respect. 'That bitch over there' eats the animals out of her traps, and takes her food, so she gets kinda heated and curses them out a lot.

I think she also like foxes and enjoys watching them, and birds, listening to their songs.

Biggest fear??

Losing her kid, which already happened. Her biggest fear was not being able to provide/keep her child alive, and then losing them to the wild, which happened (dw he comes back!) so after she experiences that, there really isn't anything she's really afraid afraid of. General fear is just being alone, never leaving the temple and eventually she won't be able to take care of herself. She is fully like 'ya when i get too old I'm going to walk into the woods and thats that' which to her is normal. I think

What does her dream visitor look like?!?!

Like a big mountain man, he kinda looks like pan. A big mountain man is the only person she's ever had intimate contact with, so that'd probably what she defaults to. But she does like people in all varieties :)

Can we draw her interacting with other Tavs?!?!

Yes Please!!! i love seeing her with other tavs! They can be friends, you can ship them, idc, I wanna see!

Does she have any missing teeth??

Probably, she's broken her tusks which grew back and are short because she uses them like a wild animal to open things, probably cracked a tooth, gotten a tooth knocked out falling down a mountain.

What companion does she get on with the least?

I think Laezel and even then I think it'd be because everything Laezel says goes over her head. She doesn't really know why she's so mad, or what she's talking about, but eventually I think they would get on well #warrior bond

I think she'd annoy the shit out of Astarion (not on purpose, just the way she is) and she would think he's a lil annoy... eventually though I think he is the first to get her to laugh and by laugh i mean she nods and says 'that was very humor'

Whats her opinions on marriage??

She is aware of marriage, doesn't really have any thoughts on it, doesn't quite get it maybe.... She doesn't have experience with romance, she doesn't really get the idea of loving someone romantically (I think she would feel it, and would do romantic things without thinking about it) I don't think she'd know what it feels like to have love or be loved, the first experience she has is with the people who raised her in the temple, left here there to guard it, never returned, and then her son. She'd need to be taught in the ways of romance, and maybe realize she wants that... I don't think she'd be interested in getting married, but if her partner wants to then sure whatever, she just doesn't have an opinion to it other than being confused why they want to marry her.

And finally and personally for me most importantly: if she was an animal, which would it be and why?

Polar bear hehe :)

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THESE QUESTIONS!!!

[princess-of-the-corner]

https://www.tumblr.com/onlyvinegar/730713750547660800

YEAH NO BASICALLY???

The Alt!Adrien stuff doesn't make sense because it's /Adrien/. Canon!Adrien was able to move on from his mom's death in a mostly-healthy manner despite having the biggest cheesewheel of DICK for a dad. How was Alt!Adrien not able to do so despite having a Good Dad who would have been there for him and helped him move on?? Why is an Adrien who would have been taught good morals by his Heroic dad down to kill anyone who gets in his way??

The Alt!Mari stuff doesn't make sense either because of most of the things that Derision doesn't make sense for. And even with the retcons, Marinette /had friends/ and the Ladybug confidence boost shut down her fear of Chloé so why would Shadybug still have cared once she got her powers? Just gonna go 'this one person was mean to me so i get to commit mass murder'???

Not to mention bigger questions like

Why did Shadybug and Claw Noir get their Miraculous? In Canon LB and CN were chosen to fight Hawkmoth. Is Fu also evil in this universe and he just went 'you know what let's let some teenagers murder half the population instead of going to therapy!'? Even if he intended for them to be Heroes and they went rogue, why did he give them the Miraculous if there wasn't a villain??

Why are they going after the Butterfly Miraculous? Sure, it has some power. But Shadybug already has plenty of power to do whatever the hell she wants to get her revenge, and clearly the Butterfly can't help Claw Noir get his mom back or else Canon!Gabe would've used it to fix Emilie before the whole show even started!! At best it would make more sense for them to either not go after the Butterfly at all and have just Hesperia happens to be the Hero fighting them, or they should be focused on taking out each other while Hesperia is doing damage control.

"Marinette never met Alya"??? Despite Alt!Alya being in the special and a major player character and presumably dating Alt!Nino, she never met her???

Even if that WAS the case, Marinette meeting Alya and Mari getting her Miraculous happened the same damn day, so what happened in like a few hours to make Alt!Mari decide 'you know what? GOing full evil villain is a great idea actually!'.

How are we once again saying that the kids that commit murders are more redeemable than the kid who was just mean???? Like granted the kids are still more redeemable than Canon!Gabe but FUCK man????

And like. Re: the reasons for Shadynoir being evil: I am trying my best to not do the victim blame-y 'but these two handled it well so why can't you?' because I hate that shit. But when I am comparing them to themfuckingselves where they had VERY little changes between their worlds, and the changes that are bigger would be less likely to add to their mentality!!

[purplemninja]

how do you feel about the autistic six headcannon?

Yay! My first ask! Thank you for sending me a question!

As for your question:

I'm not too sure how to feel about the headcanon of Six being autistic, and I don't believe that she's autistic, but a part of me feels like the autistic Six headcanon is a tad bit overused.

Everyone is entitled to their own headcanons, I just find this one being used a bit too often. I remember seeing a post about how Six may have some aversion to sound (which ties into her being autistic) and they used the scene from the 2017 comics when the Ferryman and Guests point at Six and she clutches her pain and grits her teeth. They say that there's a lot of sound going on in that scene, which is why Six curls down in distress, but I disagree because there aren't any visual clues that there's a lot of noise, like comics would draw lines to visually show loud sound, but there isn't any.

And speaking of that scene, from my old post called "Six suffers from 2 types of trauma, not just 1" (where most of what I said in it honestly still holds up 2 years later) I personally believe that one of Six's biggest fears is being kidnapped. I counted that throughout the entire LN series, Six got kidnapped a total of at least 5 times (6 if the 2017 comics are canon. I even made a meme about it some time ago).

First being when she got taken to the Nest (given that she hides in places where the inhabitants of the house wouldn't be able to find her or get, and she wanted to escape, I'm pretty sure she wasn't there at will).

Second time was by the Hunter, third was by the Bullies, fourth time by Thin Man, fifth time by the Ferryman (if the 2017 comics are canon) and sixth time by Roger (if the 2017 comics are not canon, then it's the fifth time instead. I initially didn't count that instance as a kidnapping, but when @haemosexuality counted it as Six being kidnapped, I counted it too).

I'm sure you've heard of the belief that Six suffers from Survivor's Guilt and PTSD, I firmly believe it too, especially when Six shows practically all of the textbook symptoms. I'm not sure if Six does have amnesia or not, but given that she was kidnapped 4 times by the time she encounters the Ferryman, I believe that she clutches her head, grits her teeth and curls down because she can already see that she's about to be kidnapped again, something that she's already heavily traumatised from.

I don't think that that scene has anything to do with sound. In LN1, when you have to push a cart over a pipe that has steam leaking out if it, if you get Six close enough to the steam (but not close enough for it to kill her), she'll cover her ears, same with when Mono walks on the keys of the piano after he and Six stomp it through the floor. But I don't think this is specifically because of autism, I'm pretty sure it's simply because of loud or awful sounds. Like if someone plays an instrument and they play it terribly, you'd want to stop listening to it, and I don't think anyone really likes listening to loud noise like steam leaking out of a pipe.

I had an aversion to loud sounds when I was a kid, such as fireworks, dogs barking and balloons popping. I got used to fireworks when I was around 9 years old (bit ironic since Six is 9), I don't know when I got over the loudness of dog barks, but it was somewhere in my teens (and our dog, who was a greyhound, definitely helped (greyhounds very rarely bark)), I can handle balloons popping better now, but I still prefer to avoid balloons. I'm not autistic, and not liking loud or certain sounds isn't an autism-exclusive trait.

I don't understand fully how autism works, I just know about getting upset over certain sounds, patterns or norms being changed suddenly, and difficulties with certain social interactions, but I don't think you need to be autistic to have some these traits. And I don't think Six really has any of these traits either.

TL;DR: I don't think Six has autism but people are free to headcanon her as being autistic, I just think it, and the headcanon of her being neurodivergent (not sure if it's the same thing or not), are a bit overused :/ (please don't kill me).

[duckthewarshippable]

Baby Blues

Part 1

Keith and Lance have gotten the sudden news of a baby available for their adoption. All the excitement of starting a new family has began to turn into an anxiety for Keith.

A/N: I really like writing soft, cute family stuff like this, it just brings my heart so much joy. This is entirely a fluff fic written for funsies please don’t be gross. Enjoy!!

Keith’s heart was hammering, He couldn’t calm down. The stress and anxiety he felt couldn’t be calmed. He bit down on his hand, nearly chipping his teeth on the blue wedding band that sat there. The events of the last night were swimming in his head.

They had been sitting at the kitchen table when the phone rang, a baby was available for adoption. The news had made Lance drop the mug he was holding out of excitement. Keith had all but jumped into his arms as they spun around, carefully avoiding the broken mug on the floor, full of joy at the knowledge that they would soon be a family. Just as soon as they had the mug shards cleaned and were in their good clothes the two of them hopped in the car and began to drive three states over. All the joy had began to swirl into pure dread.

His husband reached out a hand to his. Turning to look at him with those calm blue eyes he knew so well. “It’s okay to be nervous.” Lance whispered. Keith looked down. “I know- I just” He stopped himself for a second out of fear of crying “I just don’t want to mess it all up”

He felt Lance’s hand caress his face “We’re not going to, You’re not going to”

Keith did all he could to hold back tears, “What if I’m just like my mom—”

“Badass and hot? You already got that down pat.”

“No- what. Lance gross. I mean jumping ship when things get tough and leaving you and the child alone.”

“Babe, these feelings are valid. But may I remind you, your mom didn’t leave you because things got though or stressful. She left to protect you. She did the hardest thing imaginable out of love. She was able to come back into your life wasn’t she? Give Kerolia a little credit” Lance started

Keith ducked down further “I know but- what if that urge strikes me?”

Lance leaned into kiss Keith gently, “Well, you are not your mother. You’re Keith Kogane, a man who saved the universe. You can handle being a father. I believe in you. You’re one of the most competent men I know.”

Keith blushed, the flattery was nice. Although he still was super skeptical.

Lance continued “Plus you’re literally amazing with my sister’s kids. Like c’mon Silvio basically warships you and you didn’t even have to TRY. So please give yourself a little credit and believe that you might be good at this. For me?”

Keith nestled his neck into Lance’s shoulder. “How are you so calm about this.” He asked “This is probably one of the biggest things that can ever happen to us.”

Lance sighed and smoothed over Keith’s hair.

“I’m not. I’m terrified to tell you the truth. But there’s two of us and we’ll try our very best.” He smiled “Do you think we’re going to be any good at this?”

Keith leaned in closer. “I have no idea” he sighed “but we’ll figure it out.”

“That’s the man I married” Lance said with a contented smile, he gave Keith a kiss on the forehead “Now let’s go, we’re already late.”

[depressedhatakekakashi]

I had a little thought this morning reading some of your excellent posts and would love to hear your thoughts on it… but what do you feel would be some differences between trans Kakashi and trans Gai becoming pregnant?

I think the major diffrences would be that Kakashi would go through with it (once) and Gai simply wouldn’t.

Pregnancy puts pressure’s on a body and makes changes to your lifestyle during those nine months that i don’t think Gai could handle. At first it would seem like everything is the same, except with a bit more nausea and aches and pains, but then as it progresses a person finds themselves having to step back from heavier activity

In kakashi and gai’s case that not only means less training, but easier missions until finally being taken off missions all together until after

I don’t think Gai would be able to accept that. His whole life is training and missions. He worked so hard to get to a point where people respect him and even ask for him on missions, he wouldn’t want to disappoint. He’d also be giving up his body that he worked so hard to craft into what it is.

I don’t think Gai could do it and that’s totally valid of him. It’s also a large part of why i think Kakashi would only have his one kid after the war. When the dust has settled and he’s not needed on back to back missions.

That’s not even including recovery time which varies depending on the person, their body, how bad labour was or if they have a C-section (as someone who has a c-section, people were surprised i was walking day 2 as soon as they took all the stuff out of me that was keeping me from moving. I couldn’t sit still)

The MAIN difference is that Kakashi will go through it with the biggest roomiest clothes to cover his body, he’d vanish for a bit before the kid is born and then just arrive back again without a word but a new baby strapped to his chest.

Gai wouldn’t be able to do it. He couldn’t give up the constant training or the missions. He wouldn’t be able to accept what’s happening to his body or the extreme lack of control over his hormones. Kakashi is suffering but Gai would be living in his own personal hell i think so he’d just not do it.

That’s the most i can say which i realize isn’t what you were looking for most likely, but the fun part of being human and trans is we all have our own comforts. Some trans men don’t want to be pregnar ever because it would give them huge dysphoria and every step of the way would be unpleasant. Some trans men will have kids though, because their want for kids or their desire to have that kid once they realize they’re pregnant outweighs their fears and discomfort. For me (a nonbinary person) it was that my husband and I wanted a kiddo and because of medical issues never thought we could have one, so even though the actual pregnancy was unpleasant every step of the way (easy compared to others but i’d be ok never going through it again) the end result was worth it to me.

I tend to think my view on it is how Kakashi would view it. Gai wants kids but doesn’t ever want to go through that experience, so Kakashi will. He’ll hide in big hoodies and keep out of public when he can, but he’ll push through and then say ‘no more’ when all is said and done

[virtue-and-beneviolence]

Okay so basically I don't selfship but I do have OC's that are a combination of a glowed up version of myself but also kinda tailored to the characters so they mesh well lol

My current pet OC is Renge Haitani. Ya I know it's kinda cringe making an OC that's related to established characters but I saw a headcanon once that the Haitani's had younger sisters so I decided to play off that. Right! Nothing is cringe here!

She's the same age as the main cast (02/24/91 bc I thought it'd be hilarious (hj) if her brothers had their intake after the Kanto incident on her birthday) and her ultimate goal/dream is to be an Olympic figure skater. She's super soft and kinda childlike but she puts up a strong front to keep up with her brothers but much like an egg, once cracked she's a mess.

In the Bonten timeline, I paired her with Sanzu but we're not here to talk about them (though I definitely can at another time~).

I'm here to gush about best big boy South. This pair is exclusively fixed and final timeline as, uh, that's the only one where he's alive in the end. It's like those golden retriever/black cat friendships except they fucking and the golden retriever has behavioral problems. It started purely as a power play and intimidation tactic on South's part as he had beaten up her brothers and is the defacto rep for Rokuhara Tandai. He's the strongest and he's gonna get what he wants and he wants to piss off the Haitani's but then it's like she's not giving in easily but she doesn't push back either. She's understanding and knows he's got a lot of trauma but so does everyone around them so maybe let's take it easy, yeah? They have lots of heart-to-heart talks and she teaches him how to live in Japanese society (even if he ignores her advisement frequently). They have one daughter and a shit ton of unofficial adopted kids.

Uhhh I think that's it? I know it's kinda OOC at times but aren't we all doing this for fun?

Ahhh I'm so nervous to send this but thank you for doing this event and giving people the opportunity to gush!!!

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□ Why do I feel like it starts as a power thing, but he realizes so quickly that he's absolutely powerless to her when she's sad???

□ South! is! the best! Off! ice! Trainer! He handles Renge's strength conditioning off the ice and oh my god has it improved her skating so much!!!

□ He also helps test different lifts before any skating partner gets to touch her he wants to run the lift first in the gym. He's also always there when another man is gonna have his hands on (and possibly - god forbid- drop) his girl.

□ The way I know he's supporting her through anything and everything she's passionate about. Even if it is somewhat awkward being around her brothers who he has beaten to shit multiple times.

□ Soft as she is, she's wearing the pants. If only because his biggest fear is making her sad. Big man lets concern over his little wifey's emotional state drive his actions (everyone loved that)

□ He sings to the baby CONSTANTLY DUDE,,,

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Ah no this is such a cute pairing and story. Would South be able to skate well? would he let her teach him? did i make him too jealous?

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Come make my day, tell me about your self ship, and get some hcs of your own.

[wheelin-after-midnight]

31.

1. Who are you?

Vickie.

2. What are the 3 most important things everyone should know about you?

I'm disabled

I have very strong convictions and opinions even if I'm not open or vocal about all of them right off the bat or all of the time

I seem like a shy, sensitive, peacekeeping wallflower, and there are definitely times and ways that I am, but I will always defend my girlfriend and my friends just as fiercely behind their back as I would if they were in the same room. Disrespect or fuck with any of them in front of me and you will see a very, very different person. I can be terrible at standing up for myself, but I absolutely do not play when it comes to my baby or my ride or die friends. I don't think I deserve to have them if I show anything less than that level of loyalty.

3. When you aren't filling out 5,000 question surveys like this one what are you doing?

Sleeping, eating, watching something, playing with Nippy, cleaning, listening to audiobooks, going around the house singing like I'm auditioning for live theatre productions, going on little adventures with Brittany, talking to babe. Idk. Lots of things.

4. List your classes in school from the ones you like the most to the ones you like the least (or if you are out of school, think of the classes you did like and didn't like at the time).

I loved Drama, English, Spanish, French, Sociology, Law. I hated Science and Math.

5. What is your biggest goal for this year?

This year is almost over but next year trying not to let this move ruin me and hoping things turn out a lot better than I feel like they're going to right now.

6. Where do you want to be in 5 years?

Bruh, I'm just trying to make it week by week without losing my mind, okay?

7. What stage of life are you in right now?

The stage where everything feels horrible and suffocating and I can't stop it.

8. Are you more child-like or childish?

Childlike. I've always felt beyond my years, even as a kid. I feel as though childish implies immaturity, and that's not me. I have this childlike quality about me in that a lot of small things make me happy and fascinate me and bring me joy. As cynical and pessimistic as I can get, I hope that's something I always keep; being able to find the small, simple pleasures and remind others of them when they forget. Not letting the world and the ugliness of other people make me completely cold or hard.

9. What is the last thing you said out loud?

"You wanna play? Don't bite. That's not how you ask. You don't do that. No. Go find a toy." - to Nippy when I was busy and she latched onto my hand to try to get my attention.

10. What song comes closest to how you feel about your life right now?

Big White Room - Jessie J and

Stupid Girl - Jennifer Nettles

11. Have you ever taken martial arts classes?

I physically would be unable to and would get nothing out of them.

12. Does your life tend to get better or worse or does it just stay the same?

For a long time it stayed the same. I was grateful for the independence and stability. I'd never in my life experienced it for this long on that level. Now it feels like it's about to get worse again and it fills me with a lot of fear and dread that's been hard to shake. Articulating it to others doesn't help. They're very dismissive and just don't get it. I don't really expect them to.

13. Does time really heal all wounds?

Nope. Some wounds are with you forever and just randomly rip open and bleed for the rest of your life, no matter how you try to heal or how much of a handle you think you have on them.

14. How do you handle a rainy day?

There's nothing to really handle. I'm either at home watching it through the window or I go out in it and just deal with it. It's just rain.

15. Which is worse...losing your luggage or having to sort out tangled holiday lights?

I've never experienced either, but I'd say losing luggage would definitely be more inconvenient.

16. How is your relationship with your parents?

I've talked about this in other surveys. My relationship with my mother is very difficult. I think that'll bother me forever. My dad moved a good distance away from me and is always driving for his job. Our relationship isn't the same as when he lived closer, but I make a point of trying to call and talk to him every week or two.

Will you miss them when they are gone?

What kind of question is this? No one knows how they will feel while grieving until they personally experience it. Trauma and grief are very complicated things. I will probably grieve for/miss certain aspects of my parents, but also for the relationships I wish I had with each of them. No matter what happens, they were my parents. I didn't pick them, but I'm sure I'll have complicated feelings toward each of them being gone.

17. Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you?

Yes. Sometimes more aware than I'd like to be.

18. What is the truest thing that you know?

That no one is getting out of here alive, so we should make the days count in the ways that are most important to each of us.

19. What did you want to be when you grew up?

Mother. Theatre actress. Singer. Writer.

20. Have you ever been given a second chance?

Yes.

21. Are you more of a giver or a taker?

Giver.

22. Do you make your decisions with an open heart/mind?

I try to, but I can be pessimistic too.

23. What is the most physically painful thing that has ever happened to you?

Everything post hip reconstructive surgery.

24. What is the most emotionally painful thing that has ever happened to you?

Things that went down between my parents as a result of dad's alcoholism, a lot of things that have happened to me with me and my mum, losing Nan and Pa.

25. Who have you hugged today?

Just Nippy.

26. Who has done something today to show they care about you?

I sent Brittany some money as an early Christmas gift and she messaged me saying how it made her tear up at Elijah's appointment at the hospital when she saw the notification because she wasn't expecting it. Told me how much she loves me and how appreciative she was.

27. Do you have a lot to learn?

Sure. We all do.

28. If you could learn how to do three things just by wishing and not by working what would they be?

A Walk/become able bodied

B have opportunity/transportation to get back into live/musical theatre, land auditions and consistent gigs

C Pick up guitar again seriously and learn/know how to play well

29. Which do you remember the longest: what other people say, what other people do or how other people make you feel?

I have a very good memory, so I remember all of these things longer than I wish I did.

30. What are the key ingredients to having a good relationship?

Good, open communication, looking to come to resolutions, not fighting to win an argument or wound or get one over on the other person

Being able to compromise/give and take

Not going to bed angry

Laughing a lot/being able to have fun together

31. What 3 things do you want to do before you die?

A) wheelchair bungee jumping (it's a thing)

B) Be in a theatre production as an adult outside of the opportunities I had through school

C) travel more

32. What three things would you want to die to avoid doing?

A) hurting an animal

B) hurting a child

C) losing my independence and quality of life

33. Is there a cause you believe in more than any other cause?

I feel equally passionate about many, many causes. We'd be here all day if I let myself get into all of them. But anything related to the struggles and needs of the disabled community is a big one, since its something I live every day.

34. What does each decade make you think of:

The 19..

20's: my Nan

30's:

40's: WWII

50's:

60's: JFK, Patsy Cline's death.

70's:

80's: Bangin' music.

90's: My formative years.

2000s: late 2000s will always make me think of babe. We first met in 2007.

2010's: Graduating, Whitney Houston dying.

35. Which decade do you feel the most special connection to and why?

80s, 90s and 2000s, all for different reasons.

36. What is your favorite oldie/classic rock song?

Ugh. So many. I can't choose just one. I love a lot of 80s Tina Turner, I love ACDC, Lenny Kravitz, we'd be here all day if I list everything, seriously.

37. What country do you live in and who is the leader of that country?

Canada. Current prime minister is Justin Trudeau.

If you could say any sentence to the current leader of your country what would it be?

I would say more than a sentence, but I'd really want to drive home just how much so many disabled people are falling through the cracks and struggling and need help. There isn't much more concern, help or care at a provincial level. I feel like all levels of government could do better.

38. What's your favorite TV channel to watch in the middle of the night?

I usually put on YouTube or Netflix to fall asleep to. Sometimes Disney Plus.

39. What Disney villain are you the most like and why?

I can't really think of any Disney villain I'm most like or even similar to, at the moment.

40. Have you ever been a girl scout/boy scout?

No.

41. If you were traveling to another continent would you rather fly or take a boat?

Fly.

42. Why is the sky blue during the day and black at night?

Idk man. I don't feel like googling it.

43. What does your name mean?

Winner, conquerer apparently. My actual given name, anyway.

44. Would you rather explore the deeps of the ocean or outer space?

Depths of the ocean.

45. Word association

What is the first word that comes to mind when you see the word:

Air:

Pods.

Meat:

Ball.

Different:

Me.

Pink:

Panther.

Deserve:

Love.

White:

Snake.

Elvis:

King.

Magic:

Tricks.

Heart:

Beat.

Clash:

Family.

Pulp:

Fiction.

46. If you could meet any person in the world who is dead who would you want it to be?

If I could meet someone I've met again, then Nan. If someone I've never met, then Whitney Houston, Nelson Mandela and maybe Tina Turner.

47. What if you could meet anyone who is alive?

Mm, there's no one I'd want to meet super badly. Maybe Reba, to say hello again as an adult, since I met her as a kid.

48. Is there a movie that you love so much you could watch it everyday?

Probably not every single day, but there are movies I'll never be completely sick of. Bridges of Madison County, Walk the Line, Selena, The Reader.

49. You are going to be stuck alone in an elevator for a week. What do you bring to do?

This sounds awful. Am I supposed to just pee my pants? Wtf? Things to do would be the last thing on my mind if I were stuck in an elevator that long. For someone who has no choice but to use elevators in public places, I really don't like them.

50. Have you ever saved someone's life or had your life saved?

I have had my life saved by doctors more than once. Some days I'm grateful, often I wish they hadn't bothered. I'm not sure if I've personally saved someone else's. I doubt it.

51. Make up a definition for the following silly words...

Fruitgoogle:

A knock off search engine that looks like a piece of fruit.

Ambytime:

Spending time with your friend Amber.

Asscactus:

Another word for my cat when she's being bratty and feisty.

52. What was the last thing you made with your own hands?

Food.

53. What was your favorite toy as a child?

Baby dolls and barbies.

54. How many TV’s are in your house?

One.

55. What is your favorite thing to do outside?

Sit and tan and read, drink, swim, go on road trips/drives.

56. How do you feel when you see a rainbow?

I say wow and admire how pretty the colours are.

57. Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true?

Not that I can recall.

58. Have you ever been to a psychic/tarot reader?

No. I'm pretty sceptical, but now that my Nan is gone I'd be slightly more open to experiences like this.

59. What is your idea of paradise?

Me and Nippy against the world.

60. Do you believe in god and if so what is he/she/it like?

I struggle with religion a whole bunch. I'm agnostic/atheist.

61. Do you believe in Hell?

I don't think it's a place you go. I definitely think it exists on earth.

62. What one thing have you done that most people haven't?

Been disabled since I came into the world.

63. What is the kindest thing you have ever done?

I don't feel the need to list kind things I do. I just do them quietly without fuss. I don't like to be up my own ass and I don't need recognition or attention for them. If you do, then you're not doing things for the right reasons.

64. Are you a patient person?

It depends on the circumstances and situations. I can be both incredibly patient and incredibly impatient.

65. What holiday should exist but doesn't?

Aunt's Day.

66. What holiday shouldn't exist but does?

Black Friday.

67. What's the best joke you ever heard?

There's too many for me to be able to pick my brain and choose one right now.

68. Where is the most fun place you have EVER been?

First time I went to the Pride parade closest to me, or the one and only time I went four wheeling.

69. Is your hair natural or dyed?

Dyed.

70. Do you have any deep dark secrets or are you pretty much up front?

I have a lot I keep close to the chest and don't open up to people about or share with them, but I can also be incredibly up front if I want to be or I deeply trust you.

71. What is under your bed right now?

Nothing. My bed sits on the box spring on the floor. It would be too high for me to get in and out having it on the frame.

72. If you were in the Land of Oz would you want to live there or go home?

Go home.

73. If you drive do you frequently speed?

I don't drive.

74. What is the world's best song to dance to?

Ugh. There's so many. Lately I've been bopping to coasty girl by Shane walker.

75. What song was on the last time you danced with someone?

Idk, that doesn't happen.

76. Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers?

Either or.

77. What is the first animal you would run to see if you went to the zoo?

I don't like zoos.

78. Would you consider yourself to be romantic?

100%.

79. If the earth stopped rotating would we all fly off?

Well, yeah.

80. What is the one thing that you love to do so much that you would make sacrifices to be able to do it?

Have/care for an animal.

81. If you (and everyone) had to lose one right or freedom, but you could pick which one everyone had to lose, what would you pick?

The freedom to needlessly be assholes to each other.

82. If you had to choose would you live on the equator or at the North Pole?

Ugh. I hate the cold and my body doesn't handle it well, so I have to choose equator.

83. Would you rather give up listening to music or watching television?

Definitely tv. I'm never giving up music a day in my life.

84. What do you think makes someone a hero?

How they move through the world treating/helping other living things.

85. What cartoon would you like to be a character in?

Arthur, maybe.

86. Name one thing that turns your stomach:

Elder abuse! Abuse generally, but big fuck you if you hurt vulnerable people depending on you for end of life care. Boils my blood.

87. What was the last thing you paid for?

I paid rent early.

88. Are you a coupon clipper?

Not really.

89. Get anything good in the mail recently?

No.

90. Which would you rather take as a gym class...dancing, sailing, karate, or bowling?

Bowling, out of those options.

91. In Star Trek people 'beam' back and forth between different places. What this means is they stand in a little tube and their molecules are deconstructed and sent to another tube somewhere else where they are reassembled. Only problem is when the molecules are deconstructed the person is dead. When they are put back together it is only a clone that has all the dead person's memories. So...

Is the person who gets beamed the same person on both ends?

No.

92. What insects are you afraid of?

Roaches. Fuck roaches! 🤢🤮

93. If you could print any phrase on a T-shirt, what would it say?

"If you're gonna stare, I'm gonna make it worth your while."

Or

"Disabled and fabulous" with the wheelchair/disabled symbol all glittery and shit.

94. What's the most eccentric thing you have ever worn?

Idk. I have a lot of leggings with fun prints and patterns and things on them. Maybe those.

95. If you could pick one food that you could eat all you wanted but it would have no effect on how much you weigh, what food would it be?

Pizza!

Pasta!

Mint Oreos!

96. What are your parents interested in?

Not me, that's for sure, lmao.

Dad really loves what he does. Mum likes being to herself more than she doesn't. In her shop. With her dog.

97. Have you ever caught an insect and kept it as a pet?

No.

Have you ever caught and tamed a wild animal?

No.

98. What is more helpful to you, wishes or plans?

Plans.

99. When do you feel your life energy the strongest?

When I'm feeling confident, happy, safe. When I'm able to be independent.

100. You are spending the night alone in the woods and may bring only 3 items with you. What do you bring?

I mean, given my physical situation I'd die completely alone in the woods but I'll give an answer anyway

1. Tent

2. Fire starter

3. Another human who can also bring 3 items of their choosing.

[redwineconversation]

Kysha Sylla Extension Video (July 16, 2024)

In the good old days, when Lyon actually had an owner who cared about them and their results, Lyon would handle losing a world class player by simply signing another world class player as replacement. Because that's how you stay on top - you have world class players with a wealth of experience who know what it takes to win big games because they have played in so many of them.

Kysha Sylla is not Griedge Mbock.

Vicki Becho is not Delphine Cascarino.

Let's not sit here and pretend Sylla and Becho are on the same level as Mbock and Cascarino. It's just not good faith to pretend that Sylla and Becho will fill the void left by those players. It's not in good faith to say that those players just need the chance "to show what they can do" and act as though that can substitute big game experience.

Let's imagine a worse case scenario for Lyon, where their entire back line gets crippled by injury. Who will be covering for Carpenter? Can't be Sombath, she will be covering for Gilles. Can't be Renard, she's out with whatever bad injury we are imagining and has Sylla in her place. Bacha won't be able to play because she's out, which means we will be treated with Svava as LB, who has never played/won a UWCL knockout game. This scenario will have Sombath, who those not suffering from selective memory will remember her being eaten alive by bigger teams in the first half of the 2022-2023 season, being the most experienced defender. How the fuck does that not scare more (alleged?) Lyon fans? Where are your standards?!

Renard said it herself - they lost the 2024 UWCL final because certain players lacked the necessary experience. You don't win the UWCL by giving academy players a chance. You're either an academy development club or a UWCL contender. There is no universe where you can be both.

With that being said - blah blah standard disclaimers apply; fuck parasocial fans pls for the love of god talk to a therapist and find a healthy outdoors activity; @OL Comms Dept pls chip in for my AC bill I am dying here; y'all know the speech by now.

This translation is done out of a mixture of self-loathing and because I do believe that to know this team is to understand them. This is how you get to that (I will let you choose which one you identify with).

KYSHA SYLLA OLYMPIQUE LYONNAIS INTERVIEW

Sylla: I'm very proud to continue with my development club [and people wonder why I bitch so much about academy kids...] I arrived when I was 16, today I am 20. And obviously today is a huge source of pride. As time went by I got to do more and more. I went through the reserves and that went well and now I am here with a lot of ambition.

Sylla: In terms of the team the ambition is to win all three trophies [league, Coupe de France, UWCL]. From a personal perspective, it's to play more games, have much more playing time, and make a name for myself.

Sylla: I'm really proud and I want to live up to the confidence Lyon is showing to me.

Sylla: You are so lucky being an academy player at Lyon because I want to say you're with the best team in the world. The support is really great, we're with the best players and we can only improve whether it is as a human being or on the field or off of it. It's incredible being at Lyon.

Sylla: Obviously it's the most important step [going from the academy to the pro team] because this is where you need to play, you need to get those minutes and impose yourself. You need to stand out. The transition is going to be important.

Sylla: I'm a really defense-oriented player who accumulates cards and injuries. I like defending, pure and simple. I enjoy putting in the work, I enjoy the intensity, the fights. Those are my biggest qualities. If I can show them, then I think I will stand out.

Sylla: I started playing with the boys. It went well. I was never afraid, I have no fear. This is what I like to do. I'm lucky to play next to Wendie [Renard] on a daily basis [Macario after missing a sitter while up 5-0 might disagree] She is an incredible role model both in terms of her career and her personality.

VINCENT PONSOT OLYMPIQUE LYONNAIS INTERVIEW

Ponsot: She's a player who arrived when she was 16. She's from the academy so she is part of the long-term project. We have a number of players from the academy. It's something which is important for us. Kysha [Sylla] is a part of that, she's been with the team for a while now. She was on loan at Dijon.

Ponsot: She's a player with a lot of potential who unfortunately suffered a lot of setbacks due to injuries, pretty severe injuries at that [so why the FUCK did we extend her???]. But we have a lot of trust in her since rational fans don't, and we will continue to follow her as she progresses. Beyond that, she decides what she wants to do.

[nothingtobefixed]

apologies have always been a little late or useless.

Discovering things about yourself later in life is something that can make you feel very fragile and truthfully, it is a scary process. I'll be honest. I often put on a brave face. I give off this vibe that I am this fearless leader ready to take on the world. People define me as: sassy, spitfire, opinionated, bubbly and confident. Those are mostly true, sure, but I have been masking for roughly the last six months or maybe even a little more. I had therapy today. I went in there ready to spill my guts and then feel better. Only... I didn't feel better afterwards. I felt much worse. Unfortunately, that is a sign that therapy IS working. You see, I am going to explain what having C-PTSD is like for me (some people it is different, but over all we mostly have similar symptoms). I often go through bouts of feeling worthless, hopeless, guilty and often even ashamed. That comes with being unable to really control my emotions. I was not taught emotional regulation as a kid. So someone can not validate my emotions and I immediately, in my head, jump to *I must have done something wrong* almost by default. Friendships & relationships in general are hard. Why? Because I do not want to disappoint anyone. So I will cycle in and out of keeping people at a distance. Also, most people that I have loved have hurt me. I am hypervigilant about letting people in for the fear of them hurting me. I can't help this - it is a trauma response. But when I do consider you a safe person? And I feel like you don't listen to me or take me serious? That is one of the biggest let downs to me. Once people with C-PTSD start working on healing, the intense emotions get so much harder because you start having flash backs and you feel like you are re-living the trauma all over again. This is where I currently am at. I feel like my mind is at war with my body. I have been experiencing such dissociation that I feel like I am struggling to live life NOT dissociated currently. My therapist even pointed out to me today that I have no emotion when telling horrific things that happened to me, like I am telling a story about someone else yet it is my own life. The only response I could give her was, "If I feel the emotions tied to these experiences, I am afraid I won't make it out. If I cry, I don't think I will stop. Emotionally I am hurting so bad right now." So, today, I was given a task. To simply focus on myself because that is primarily what I can handle right now. As of lately, I have not been able to sleep. There are nights I do not remember going to sleep and moving to my bed. Or I do not remember events from the day. My therapist is concerned about my dissociative symptoms and is having me write down when I feel this way. I don't know who really reads this except who I send it to, I guess. But friends & family - know that one day I will make it through all of this. I need grace right now. That is why I am putting such hard work in to this. If I cannot be fully present right now for you, it is because I am utterly broken right now and I am having to repair myself. Truthfully my life depends on it. I have a daughter that needs her mother. I want to be able to look at my girl one day and be able to say to her, "I did it. I am whole again." Because I never had someone that was willing to do that for me. It ends with me. I am the cycle breaker.